When Will It End?

I took the kids to Science World today. We met JJ there, and he took them home with him when we were done. It is Spring Break this week, and he took some time off work to be with them.

JJ and I talked a little once the kids were in his car. He was trying not to cry. I could see his chin quivering. He is hurting right now like I was hurting in December and January. He knows I'm spending time with FdM, and he's upset about it. He's jealous.

He said he's not ready to let go.

Too bad. He left me. He wouldn't leave his girlfriend -- the only thing I asked him to do. So what right does he have to be upset about me having a male friend? Did he expect me to be alone for the rest of my life?

I wish I had the strength to not read his emails. I have succeeded in not replying to the last 2 he sent me. It was not easy, but I resisted. He has our whole time-line messed up so it looks like I cheated on him! I don't know why he can't remember things... what's the point in doing anything if you aren't going to remember it?

I am out of patience for him.

Now I just need to be out of words for him.